Her publisher, Viking Penguin, describes it with the following: But a psychological legacy of repression lingers When a cherished but faltering romance leads her back to her childhood home, she sinks into emotional crisis
Pinterest Praise "Bookstores are flooded with boozy bios by former girls gone wild. Smashed goes down with a slow, genteel burn. We'll be sitting in the kitchen, both four and seven years from now.
My dad will extend the leaves of the kitchen table to accommodate whatever college boyfriend I've brought home for the weekend.
And my mom, while spooning out three-bean salad, will turn and ask him, "Has Koren told you about the time she almost died? Sure enough, it feels like death.
On November 9,I wake up between the Tide-stiff sheets of my childhood Banister Bed and one thought occurs to me: I'm not wearing any underwear.
This is all the information I need to know that something horrendous has happened. At sixteen, I am never naked, save for ten minutes a day under the stream of a morning shower, and even then, I turn away from the bathroom mirror before I drop my towel to step in.
Even alone, I am ashamed of the arcs of my own pale skin, particularly in the whitest part that spans between my hips. Given my tendency to thrash in my sleep and kick down sheets, I would never sleep without underwear. My bed looks like it's been made with me in it.
There's not a wrinkle in the comforter; its patched pastel pattern is pulled smooth and tight, clear up to my neck. When I start to unroll my arms and legs from the folds of the sheets, I feel a sharp pain in my elbow, like I've been sleeping on it, and I stop for a moment, trying to decide if that position is physically possible.
I decide to fold back the comforter from one corner, the way someone might diagonally halve a dinner napkin. I do it slowly. It's like opening a hand-addressed letter with no return address; I have a feeling I could find just about anything inside.
What I find under the covers looks like someone else's nightgown.
It is a thin, white, cotton smock, stippled with green, and it cuts off at my knees. I can't imagine who I borrowed it from, since my friends and I all sleep in nylon shorts and our dads' XL T-shirts. When I feel around to the breach of cloth above my own pink ass, it dawns on me: I'm wearing a hospital gown.
I'm immobile in the face of my panic. I'm stunned to the point that I don't dare breathe or kick my feet in a way that would make even the faintest sliding sound on the starched sheets. I don't know how many minutes I lay like this, motionless in the small sag that my body makes in the mattress, barely breathing.
I can't get out of bed until I've figured out what emergency landed me in this green and white gown.
My room is directly above the dining room, and the littlest thump on the carpet can shake the chandelier; I don't want anyone downstairs to see it swinging and know I'm awake.
I feel like I'm arriving at the scene of an accident, like my physical self has been creamed in a hit-and-run and my mental self is the first one to find it. All I can do is run through the basic first-aid checkpoints, the first of which is:Koren Zailckas (born ) is a bestselling American writer and memoirist.
Her debut, Smashed, was released in by Viking Penguin and became a New York Times bestseller. Zailckas attended Nashoba Regional High School in Bolton, Massachusetts and Syracuse University. Zailckas suffers from alcohol poisoning while in high school and attends keg parties as an undergraduate at Syracuse University.
There, drinking is a part of the daily routine, and alcoholism is sanctioned by the school's system of fraternities and sororities. Eye-opening and utterly gripping, Koren Zailckas’s story is that of thousands of girls like her who are not alcoholics—yet—but who routinely use booze as a shortcut to courage and a stand-in for good judgment/5().
Smashed: Story of a Drunken Girlhood is Koren Zailckas' account of life as an alcoholic. It traces her life from her first drink, when she was fourteen, to her last, at twenty-two; Smashed chronicles Zailckas' struggle with alcohol abuse, in an effort to explain the binge .
Koren Zailckas (born ) is a bestselling American writer and memoirist. Her debut, Smashed, was released in by Viking Penguin and became a New York Times bestseller. Zailckas attended Nashoba Regional High School in Bolton, Massachusetts and Syracuse University. Eye-opening and utterly gripping, Koren Zailckas’s story is that of thousands of girls like her who are not alcoholics—yet—but who routinely use booze as a shortcut to courage and a stand-in for good initiativeblog.coms: